Just that random girl with her typical girly mood swings.
~ Monday, June 11 ~
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Soundtrack of my night:
The Script - Breakeven

           I admit.  I’ve been loafting on a lot of things.  Things I need to do.  Things I enjoy.  Tell me: haven’t you felt like nothing feels too important at the moment and you just want to sleep for a month?  That you need a change?  Like, a complete makeover - head-to-toe, life-to-job, location-to-people?  I’m sure we’ve all been there.
          I’ve been sick for four days, mellowed out for a while now.  I’m so darn used to keeping busy that sitting home all day makes me second-think and stress about all the little things I’m try to work hard to get rid of.  It’s the life of an adult.  I’m sure most adults have experienced this.  If not as adults, then even as teens.
          One day, I’d like things to actually work out for once in my life.  Yes, I finally found a few close friends I can talk to if I need to, one being someone I can rely on for support without even asking for it.  But then, there are the other things that drive me insane.  For example, people who share things with me: please be responsible and pay back on time.  For people who tell me or ask me things last minute: don’t bother if it’s going to piss me off.  For those who don’t understand why I never like taking a day off from work unless it’s family: I work eleven-fucking-hours a week and my bills are more than my paycheck.  Stop bitching.  I’m not rich or well-off like most people.  Not everyone is fortunate to be throwing around money like no body’s business.  I have a life to focus on, and if you don’t appreciate or understand it, why the fuck are you in my life?  Get the hell out.
           And all these illnesses I’m catching - I don’t make excuses when I say I’m sick.  I’m actually sick.  I’m sick most of the time.  I’m not as healthy as I used to be, and if you don’t understand that either, then why do you bother?
           I’ve had such a lifeless summer so far.  I just workout, hang out a few times, work, watch TV, and get sick.  I started homeopathy to reduce stress, but I haven’t gone back to the therapist and now things are building up again.  I’d like another job that’ll be perfect for my “future career,” whatever that may be.  I’d like a new home, away from this annoying place.  As someone who moved around quite often, this is the longest I’ve stayed in a location and you know what?  I hate it.  But again, eleven hours a week.  That’s not going to help me pay rent.
           This is probably the most serious blog I’ve ever had, but it’s needed once in a while.  If you don’t want to read it, don’t read it.  This isn’t actually for your entertainment, but for my own soul.  I haven’t written out anything to calm this soul in a long time.  Consider this the first time in a while.

Tags: Bored The Script Breakeven Mellow Rant Lost Hate Loafting Loaft Tired Sick Change
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~ Sunday, April 1 ~
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This Is All.

           What a ridiculous day!  I was at work from 8:00 a.m. to 4:00 p.m. with only a thirty-minute break.  Why?  Because it was incredibly busy.  People actually took the time to come down to FreshCo on this shitty day… to buy groceries!  It seems to be getting busier and busier by the day.  I’m surprised the Sunday is busier than the Saturday night that I worked.  People are supposed to be hung-over today, or over-sleeping, or something.  Why man?!  Why?  I’m so tired.  Fack ma vie!
           On the plus side, my exams are finally over!  How did I celebrate?  I took Tunafish to Rancho Relaxo for his bornday.  Click here for the review! Anyhows, the old man needed his beans.

           Okay, he’s not old; twenty-two.  If you’re reading this, don’t kill me!

           Anyways, March was a brutal month.  I had major assignments, financial stress (that’s not new), many illness issues, hardly ate, and then found out I’m pregnant.  This explained my appetite fluctuations, nausea and the occasional vomiting, fatigue, and temper tantrums that can destroy the world.  Women.  Well, it’s a lot of emotional stress when these issues are combined.
           In regards to exams, I was nearly living on empty and lost my appetite because I was so preoccupied with school.  I wasn’t even hungry after working out.  My only solution was soup and flavoured tea.  For instance, I bought Tetley’s blueberry green tea and honey lemon ginseng green tea.  Delicious!  I know that most of my budget went to Starbucks for coffee and FreshCo for trail mix.  I ditched most get-togethers and avoided attending parties because I was that wiped out.  Then again, I don’t really like parties in general.  I just like to chill and drink… sort of… although it’s been over a month and don’t really care.

           I DON’T KNOW ANYMORE!

           I can’t lie though.  While I was stressing, I already planned a night of drinking with my brotha-from-anotha-motha; and getting high with my otha brotha-from-anotha-motha and eating pie; and my sista-from-anotha-motha, plus eating a meatball sub from Subway.

           Eat fresh!

           I know what you’re thinking.  I do.  No, honestly, I do.  You want to know what you’re thinking?

           Shut the fuck up, I don’t know what you’re thinking - OKAY?

           Anyways, I already started looking for summer courses because I need to take a second-year Social Science class before applying into my periodical stream and focusing on my career path.  So far, there’s a slight dilemma, but I hope the program coordinator replies to my voicemail, or I will have to personally barge in there myself, going Super Saiyan, and demanding an explanation!

           Or kindly ask for her advice.

           I also hope that York’s potential strike on April 12 does not affect spring/summer school.  I really, really, need it.  I have never been so serious about school in my life until now.
           Going back to my financial stress issues, OSAP finally did give my money on March 20th, but I put everything into my savings account except for $1000.00.  Guess what?  All that is going to go on a two-night hotel-stay, my crown for my filling for $988.00, and my trip to Cuba for $544.19.  Good bye, money!  May you rest in pieces.

           Okay, I don’t regret itthatmuch.

           Anyways, this is the first time I will ever be getting on a plane.  This is also the first time I will be leaving the countries.  For all the elementary school teachers I gave excuses to for not doing my homework by saying I went to England: if you’re reading this… I clearly lied.  I’m good at that.  I can’t get in trouble now.  And look!  I’m in university.  Yeah, yeah!

           And this is why Mom tells me I’m a bad influence to children.

           Anyways, I’m unbelievably excited.  My Asian sista-from-anotha-motha (I have to stop doing that), Jennifurgle Bachular (sorry Jen!), and I have been planning to go to Cuba together for two-to-three years.  Out of a spontaneous deal offer we once encountered, while I was supposed to be studying for my exam, we just decided to search Flight Centre’s website, found a pretty awesome deal, grabbed ma Asian-dad-from-another — okay, I’ll stop; we grabbed her dad’s credit card and kung-fu’d it, paying for our flight tickets.

           “No turning back!”

           Oh, how I miss DDR.

           I hope my ears don’t hurt on the plane.  I heard they pop.  Fuck my already fucked life if they do.  And that heat better burn off some belly fat.  They’re so hard to remove!  And those unlimited international drinks… we’re so fucked.  Fuck yeah!
           I think we both deserve this trip though.  We’ve been so incredibly buried into our busy lives that we need to get away from this crazy country once, at least.  Although she’ll come back and leave again… darn you!
           So, that is the end of my wonderful blog, updated with all this juicy goodness.

P.S.  I’m not really pregnant.  April foolios?  Yeah, failed attempt.

                     

                                                                              Fin.

Tags: Exams Finished Freedom Cuba Varadero Tired Rant Strike Summer School Hermit No Party Partying Chill Get High Brutal Work Long
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~ Thursday, March 22 ~
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Too Early.

Dear readers,

           I can’t find my tweezers.  I also walked in on a spider in my bathroom at 4:00 am.  I walked around it slowly to do my business and stared at it as I finished.  I’m not sure how I did this half-asleep, but I ripped a cardboard in half, trapped the spider with an empty tissue paper roll, covered the top with one half of the cardboard, and the bottom with the other half.  I don’t remember how I opened the door to leave the washroom, but I did, and crept into the living room towards the balcony.  Somehow, I opened the door to my balcony and unleashed the spider over the edge.  

           I couldn’t find it.  I went back to sleep.

           I woke up an hour later and asked Mom if it means anything if I see a spider standing still first thing in the morning.  She shrugged.  When I spider crawls up the wall, it’s good luck.  If it crawls down the wall, it’s bad luck.  What if it stands still?  Hm…

           I’m already hungry.  It’s a bit too early, don’t you think?  I have exams in exactly two weeks, an essay due this Friday, next Tuesday, and a presentation on Wednesday.

           My OSAP has finally come.  I love how it comes now.  Each time I transfer a portion into my savings, more come.  They won’t stop.  On top of that, I got paid!

… why does this hurt my head?

           And did you know The Situation’s dad calls himself The Confrontation?  Do you watch Jersey Shore?

I don’t.

           And hey!  What is up with these elderly customers these days?  There was this man who I accidently overcharged, and when my manager was going to help him, she took his receipt to the office to check to make sure it was an overcharge.  This customer was absolutely impatient and started banging on the office door.  Let me just say something: if you want to be treated as a good customer, bea good customer.  You earn respect; it doesn’t get handed to you on a silver platter.
           Anyways, this is the shortest blog ever and I’m way too tired this morning.  Coffee?  Absolutely.  Pantslessness?  Perhaps.  Magic carpet lifting me off the ground and taking me to school?  Fuck, no!  As much as I like the idea, I like my feet on the ground, thank you very much.  However, I will like to make an exchange of that offer by punching a hobo in the face and breaking the last of his teeth.  Yeah.

          It’s 6.07 am and this is Timmay signing off… for now.  Have a good day!

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~ Tuesday, December 13 ~
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Stop, Drop… and Hump.

           This blog was meant to be for Monday, but it’s too late.  Whatever, I’m still going to blog because I’m on a roll.  I didn’t have a short story to post on Wednesday, and I felt slightly ill to blog on Friday.

           Anyways, I had such a brutal week regarding my pained legs.  I took an extra shift on Wednesday after an hour break.  I went to school and back, and then my supervisor called me in to cover a shift.  I offered, so I couldn’t really refuse after that.  Extra money?  Pretty much.  And then the new sale decided to slap us in the face with the nicer weather and the weekend was pretty much busy.  On Sunday, I ended up working eight and a half hours, took an hour to shower and get ready, and then travel another hour to Etobicoke to my niece’s first birthday.  I ate late, and when I came home about three hours later, I threw up because my metabolism slows down so much after a certain time that it doesn’t digest anything.  This morning, I woke up with stomach pains.  Isn’t that so fun?  I thought so.

           I didn’t go to the reference library to study for my exam and decided to clean my room.

           Start time: 9:00 AM
           End time: 6:00 PM
           Amount cleaned: 75%

           Look!  The first three letters spell “SEA”!

            I ended up throwing out three bags of recyclables, one bag of waste, and two bags of general garbage.  My room still looks messy to me…

Man, I’m so tired I can’t even think anymore.  My eyes are shut while I type this.  Gah!

                                 

Tags: work rant cleaning studying tired random thoughts sick barf fail
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~ Friday, November 25 ~
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Thanks, Ford.

Disclaimer: The first-half of the blog may be offensive to those who are highly political and support the Conservatives and our current mayor.  However, this is Canada and I have free speech.  I have the right to criticize politicians who allow themselves present publicly.  Those who allow themselves to be under the public eye immediately allow citizens to criticize them.  Some comments may be offensive.  Readers’ discretion is advised.

                       

I know I usually would blog on Mondays as stated in my schedule section of my Tumblr account, but this just had to be addressed.

I am a second-year student at York University travelling from downtown Toronto.  I have to deal with high tuitions rates, financial issues, and can’t even afford the kindly reduced post-secondary student metropasses, let alone tokens.  Recently I, and perhaps many others, needed to leave two hours before our class, perhaps earlier depending on where they live and if they’re taking the TTC, to make it to school on time.  Initially, this was thanks to the new subway line construction, causing the buses to all take detour routes.

           

Okay, fine.  That’s acceptable.

           

And then Rob Ford came along, our little Humpty Dumpty mayor, and decided to play with the budget cuts.  According to an article in the Toronto Star, $1.4 billion out of the 9.3 billion reductions included bus route operating hours and “hike TTC fares” (Urban Affairs Bureau: The Star 2011).  The reduction involves layoffs and buyouts of managers.  At the time of the announcement, about 171 union positions and 251 management positions would be eliminated to try and save about $32 million per year (Fuck Rob Ford 2011).

           

That’s great.  We’re saving money.  How about those who are losing their jobs?  How about those who need and rely on the TTC to travel places?

           

During my first year at York University, I did not have a problem with line-ups that snaked around the station or campus.  This year, with five-thousand new students admitted into York, the line-ups have been ridiculous.  For instance, in most cases it takes the 196B – the bus going from York, to Downsview Station, and then to Sheppard-Yonge Station – come every twenty minutes!  Why do we even have one then?  Why not just take the 196(A), get off at Downsview, and take the 84 bus to Sheppard-Yonge?  Are buses not being wasted?  Why wait for a bus that takes every twenty minute?

Today, I picked up the Metro newspaper which usually cheers me up every morning and keeps me occupied on my ride to school.  Today, it added to my irritation.  I was fuming and ready to hit someone (excuse my violent intentions) as I boarded the 196 Rocket.  I am absolutely fed up with these budget cuts.  Yes, I understand that the city will be saving money, but will the citizens be saving money as well?  As far as I’m concerned, fare hikes and layoffs do not result in saving money for an individual, especially a post-secondary student.  When individuals lose money, there’s less consumerism, and then we’ll be making money, I’m sure.  Go Canada!

The article, “Bus, streetcar wait about to get longer”, Ford is deciding to cut the budget for sixty-two more transit routes across the city including: King and Queen Streetcar routes, and 25 Don Mills, 29 Dufferin, 35 Jane and Airport Rocket bus routes.

“Wait times will increase from as little as 15 seconds to as much as six minutes and 20 seconds, with many in the two-minute rage. (Torstar News Service 2011).  As little, it says.  What – our wait times aren’t long enough already?          

I’m sure there are people who wait for extremely long minutes to get on a streetcar, bus or train and then end up being late to your destination.  There are also people who experience being stranded in the rain or cold (or both) and need public transportation, but see five streetcars, for example, coming from the opposite direction, but none going in theirs.  On top of that, streetcars and buses don’t mostly arrive on the scheduled times, and then we have drivers saying “It’s not my time to leave yet”, while having the bus sit at the stop with the motor still running.  And I have never encountered so many out-of-service buses and trains in my life until this year.

I don’t mean to seem like a whining child about the public transit.  Believe me; I’m still thankful we even have the TTC.  I’m sure others are thankful as well. Without it, we wouldn’t be able to get to school or work (unless we had other methods of transportation).  However, in my perspective the TTC service is nearly unreliable in frequency and with these budget cuts, the problem becomes worse.  Is Ford ever going to understand?  Maybe he will have an open-mind when he takes that hotdog out of his mouth and takes a walk once in a while.

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